Why He Told Him [ Short Story ]

In honor of National Kissing Day, read this short story about two boys kissing.

Note: In terms of the canon of FanFact, this story is a fanfiction written by Clara. For more information about FanFact, click HERE.

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Liam had been having a perfectly good night. He’d grabbed dinner with Sylvia at Food & Brews, finished his homework for incantation study and math, and had just sat down in his room with a book to relax for the first time in days when he’d gotten the message.

It was from Blane. It was always from Blane, lately. Liam growled to himself as he read the message, earning himself sideways glances from the other boys in the dorm.

Blane wanted to meet for a late-night training session.

Liam’s fingers dug into the book sitting on his lap. Blane didn’t even want to be mentoring him. He complained about it nearly every time they had to interact. So why was Blane suggesting they spend even more time together than usual?

His eyes dropped to the first paragraph of his novel. How long had it been since he’d read something for fun? Months, he figured. It had taken him all week to convince himself he could take a break for an entire evening and just enjoy himself. He didn’t have to go. He knew he could stay right here and read his book. He didn’t even have to reply.

Or he could get back to training and trying to find his specialty.

Liam slammed the book shut and stood. He’d have plenty of time to relax once school was over and he had a specialty and a career. While he would rather not have to deal with Blane, he couldn’t deny that Blane was talented. If Blane wanted to meet outside of their normal trainings, it meant something. Hopefully something good.

So that was how Liam found himself trudging through the school and outside to the training grounds in the forest at 11:00 PM on a school night. He kept an eye out in the halls for Principal Sanders, just in case she tried to stop him. Strictly speaking they were allowed to train anytime on the training grounds, day or night, but generally students made use of the indoor training rooms, not the forest.

It was a chilly night for September. The grass was damp beneath Liam’s feet as he crossed the school grounds. The trees in the distance were shrouded in shadow. Liam had found it intimidating when he’d first started school -- it was laughable now, really. He spent hours in this forest every week.

He slipped quietly among the trees, splitting from the path to take a more direct route to the training grounds. It wasn’t a long walk, but the trees were thick, the long, winding branches blocking the moonlight from above. Liam frowned. Why wouldn’t Blane have lit the training area? He’d always done so in the past.

He quickened his pace slightly. Criminal behavior on school grounds was uncommon, but not unheard of. And Blane’s family was really well-known, so if someone was going to attack a specific target…

The training grounds were empty when he got there. Liam held his breath and listened; the creak of branches in the wind, the chirps of bugs in the trees, but that was all. It wasn’t an unnatural silence, but it was a silence caused by Blane not being where the message had said he was. Blane wasn’t petty enough to play a trick just to get Liam to leave his warm dorm room, so he should have been there.

That didn’t mean that something had happened, Liam told himself. Blane was popular so no one from the school would have tried to hurt him, and Blane was more than capable of holding his own in a fight. And it really wasn’t likely that someone had come after him in some sort of political move on school grounds. Blane must have sent the message before arriving here.

“Liam!”

Despite himself, Liam jumped. He whipped his head around, eyes sweeping across the entire expanse of training grounds. There was nothing there, but that had definitely been Blane’s voice.

“Are you using a-”

Blane shushed him. “Come here, by the targets.”

Liam grit his teeth and stomped towards the target area. The air in front of him wavered slightly, so minutely that Liam was sure he wouldn’t have noticed it if Blane hadn’t specifically called out for him. He took several steps forward and suddenly Liam was practically stumbling over Blane. The other boy reached out to steady him.

“Why the hell are you standing right at the edge of the concealment zone?” Liam complained. “And why are we even in a concealment zone?”

Blane’s expression was uncharacteristically solemn. “I needed to talk to you.”

“Now?” Liam asked. He’d left his bed and his book and his relaxation time he’d forced on himself because Blane wanted to talk to him? “I see you every day.”

“This is important.”

“Important enough to-”

“Liam.” Blane hadn’t risen his voice, but the deliberateness surrounding that single word was enough to make Liam pause. “I’m serious. This is important, and I don’t want anyone overhearing.” A pause, briefly, then “can you use a muffling spell? You’re better at those than I am.”

This really was serious. Liam cast the spell quickly. The creaking branches and chirping insects were dulled -- not impossible to hear, if you were trying to, but who would be listening for two teenagers in the forest right now? Liam turned to Blane and nodded. “Ok, what’s going on?”

Blane seemed to steel himself. “Alright. So you know how we were just on summer vacation.”

“Believe it or not, I did notice that.”

“I’m trying to talk to you!” Even Blane seemed startled by the rawness in his voice. Liam opened his mouth to reply (though with what, he wasn’t sure), but Blane barreled on. “I overheard a conversation this summer, between my father and a member of the Hierarchy Party.” 

Liam’s mouth slammed shut. It wasn’t a secret that the Nightshade family had voted for the Hierarchy Party. Liam was sure that if Blane had been old enough to vote, he would have too. Whatever it was that had led Blane to call him out here in the middle of the night wasn’t good. Something had happened, but if Blane was telling him then it almost certainly had to do with specialties. “What, are people like me going to be collected or something?”

Blane bit his lip. “Nothing that simple. The party wants to...run experiments,” Blane said finally. Liam was quiet. “To see why some people don’t develop specialties, or why people develop weak ones.”

Liam shook his head before Blane even finished speaking. “The public will never go for that.”

“It doesn’t matter if the public goes for it,” Blane said. “The Hierarchy Party is in control of all branches of the government. They can pass any law they want. The president is power-hungry, he wants to make his mark on America and if he is the one to discover what makes people develop their specialties...think of how much more famous he’d be,” Blane said. He stepped closer. “They can make us have whatever specialty they want. We would have the most powerful army in the world. He would become a legend.”

“But the public outcry-”

“They’ll do it in secret first, I think,” Blane interrupted. “To test it out.”

Liam’s expression didn’t change, though his stomach churned and his heart rate briefly surged. It wasn’t as if this was a surprise, that they’d come for him. He was a rarity and known for vanishing to go practice. “So you think they’ll come and...what, kidnap people like me?”

“And they won’t just let you go after they’ve experimented on you,” Blane said. “It’s going to be...cruel. Analytical. At the end of everything, they’ll kill you to keep it quiet.”

Liam nodded jerkily. “You heard this?”

“Yes.”

“Why are you telling me this?” Liam asked finally. “You hate me, and if I just...vanish so they can’t find me, they’ll know you were the one to tell me.”

Blane shifted uncomfortably. “We don’t know that.”

“Who else would have told me?” Liam asked. “You’re the one I spend the most time with, and you would be the one most likely to know about this.” Liam lowered his voice, eyes scanning the forest around them. If the government had a plan like this, they could already be listening, especially if Liam was a target. “I still don’t understand why you’re telling me this.”

Blane frowned. “Why wouldn’t I?”

“You hate-”

“I don’t want to see you killed!” Blane’s eyes widened and the next time he spoke, his voice was nearly a whisper. “And I don’t hate you.”

Liam snorted. “That’s not the impression you give.”

Blane’s eyes flashed. “There’s a big difference between me not wanting to be forced to forgo my studies to help you and me wanting you dead, Liam. Besides, this is wrong. This isn’t just policy, this is our government murdering people. Murdering citizens.”

“I still don’t understand why you’re telling me,” Liam said, and he didn't. Even if Blane didn’t want him dead, Liam was the last person he should be talking to. “You should tell the….police, or Principal Sanders, or someone who can do something about this.”

“What are they going to do about it?” Blane demanded. “It’s the president. The entire government.”  

“But why me?” Liam insisted.

“You have got to be the biggest idiot on the face of this planet,” Blane cried. “Because I like you, you moron.”

Liam blinked at him. “Okay…”

“For the love of-” Blane stepped forward, closing the space between him and Liam in just two steps. His hands lifted and for one wild moment Liam thought Blane was going to attack him. Before he could prepare to defend himself, Blane had wrapped one of those hands around the back of his head, the other against his shoulder blade, and pressed their lips together.

Blane was kissing him. Blane Nightshade, the boy that everyone in the school wanted, was kissing him. His lips were smooth, cool from the fall air. And they were gone as quickly as they’d come. Blane pulled away and took a few steps backwards, opening a noticeable chasm of space between them.

“Oh,” was all Liam could think to say.

Blane smiled, a small, sad smile that had no business being on his face. “Yes, oh. You need to get out of here.”

“What, tonight?” Liam’s head was still spinning from kissing Blane Nightshade. That kiss was more shocking than anything Blane had told him that night.

Blane nodded, strictly business now. “Who knows when they’ll go looking for you, or for other people like you? If you’re in the school they know exactly how to get to you.”

“Principal Sanders wouldn’t let anyone be kidnapped,” Liam said.

“If she can help it.” Blane smiled at him again. Liam wasn’t used to Blane smiling at him. “This is safer. I’ll update you about what’s going on back here. But things are bad. You can feel it, can’t you? People are on edge -- you can feel it in the magic.”

That much was true. Liam could always feel the magic drifting through the air, but it had seemed heavier since he’d returned to school. Almost oppressing. “What will you do?”

“I don’t know,” Blane said. “Figure out who to tell, I guess? But in case that doesn’t work out I just wanted to make sure you got away.”

“I...thank you.” The words weren’t nearly enough. Blane was going directly against the Hierarchy Party by giving Liam this information. He was going against his parents. He could end up in a lot of trouble for this, if the government was using shady tactics like he said they were.

“You’re welcome.” The tension in Blane’s shoulders fell away. “I don’t know when or if they’re coming but I just...I think it’s going to be bad.”

It felt like a goodbye, and suddenly, Liam wasn’t ready. He’d had an entire school year to prepare to never see Blane again, and as annoying as he was, the other boy had done a lot to help Liam try to find his specialty. And now he was risking his own future, the thing he valued most, to help Liam.

Liam didn’t think before moving. He crossed to Blane, and now it was the other boy’s turn to be shocked as Liam kissed him. It wasn’t a nice kiss; it was hard, their lips mashing against each other as their teeth clinked together. But it felt good, not just because Blane was a good kisser (and of course he was), but because of something...else. Something Liam couldn’t identify yet.

When they broke apart, Blane looked absolutely shell-shocked. “Do you…?” Blane asked, leaving the question swirling half-asked in the air between them.

“I don’t know,” Liam said, completely honestly. He’d had no idea Blane felt this way and his emotions about that were all twisted up with the fear of what was going to happen next. “I’ll get back to you.”

Blane chuckled. It felt warm, after everything they’d talked about so far that night. “Fair enough. Be careful out there, okay?”

Liam nodded. “Yeah, you too.”

Liam didn’t head back towards the school immediately like Blane did. Instead, he made a beeline for the one place on the school grounds he always went to think. He slid down the rocks along the cliffside as if it were second nature, ducking inside and retreating to the back of the cave. He was soothed almost immediately by the familiar sound of waves lapping against the rocks. He should be thinking about the Hierarchy Party, their plans to experiment on people, about what he needed to do next.

Instead, he thought about the sensation of Blane’s cool lips on his, and how he would like to feel them again.

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10 Queer Authors You Need To Follow Immediately

This year during Pride Month take some time to support the work of talented queer authors. As time goes on, more and more queer authors are getting published in both fiction and non-fiction. What is so amazing about this is that queer voices are being heard more often across the media, which means queerness in culture is getting more normalized as time goes on.

I’ve been out and proud since college -- though I am embarrassed now that it took so long for me to figure it out. I grew up around LGBT individuals and couples and I cultivated my love of writing because of male/male fanfiction. Once I finally understood that I was bisexual, I was obsessed with finding books about queer characters, and it was a challenge.

There are some amazing resources out there to help you find fantastic novels featuring queer characters, but I wanted to find queer authors who are writing about queer characters.

These are some of the amazing queer authors that I’ve found. I tried to focus on finding modern LGBTQ authors who are still regularly producing content so you can support their work as they write more amazing books.

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Author 1: Malinda Lo

If you’re like me, you probably heard of Malinda Lo because of her lesbian re-telling of Cinderella. Taking a problematic tale and flipping it to make it not only a story of a female hero, but a queer hero, is enough to snag anyone’s attention. Malinda Lo has several other YA fantasy novels, including one that was published just a few months ago.

Malinda Lo also researches diversity in YA. She’s a proud Asian author who posts regular social commentary on topics revolving around diversity.

Genre: YA Fantasy
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Author 2: Sarah Waters

This author writes about events set during Victorian times with lesbian themes. That’s something you simply don’t see very often. She spends a lot of time doing research for her work, creating a vivid setting that feels completely realistic. I may be a bit biased because I love the Victorian period, but she’s written about other time periods as well.

She’s not published anything new in the past couple of years, but you should definitely check out her old work and keep your eyes peeled for new releases.

Genre: Historical Fiction
Popular Work: Tipping The Velvet

Author 3: CB Lee

If you are looking for diversity in the books you read, this is a queer author you need to check out. Her work features characters who are: bisexual, transgender, Hispanic, Chinese -- and that’s just the start! But her most popular work doesn’t focus on this diversity specifically, because the characters are too busy having superpowers.

Her books are the kind of stories I was looking for when I was a teenager. Keep an eye on her work; she’s not going away anytime soon.

Genre: YA Sci-Fi
Popular Work: Not Your Sidekick

Author 4: Saleen Haddad

I’ve not read this author yet, but I am so excited to. He plays with the role shame has in the life of a gay Arab man in his debut novel, which takes place in an unspecified Arab country after a failed political uprising. This is a unique perspective when it comes to queer stories and I’m really eager to see what this author has to say.

This is his first novel and he doesn’t come from a writing background, so I’m not sure if he plans to keep writing. Either way, his voice is one to listen to!

Genre: Literary Fiction
Popular Work: Guapa

Author 5: David Levithan

David Levithan is pretty well known in the LGBTQ fiction scene, and for good reason; he’s been publishing books featuring strong, gay characters for over a decade. As a teenager he was one of the only authors I could reliably find publishing YA with queer characters in my local library. He’s still writing so keep an eye out for his work.

He also has done collaborations which are worth checking out as well.

Genre: YA
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Author 6: Sara Farizan

I cannot talk enough about this author. If You Could Be Mine isn’t just a story about two women falling in love, it’s a story about two women falling for each other in Iran. I was so excited to discover a novel that focuses on a part of the world we rarely get to see in Western media. The cover art for her new book was just announced, which focuses on the topic of race in high school.

She also has a second novel, Tell Me Again How a Crush Should Feel already published. If you like diversity and YA fiction I highly recommend you look into her work. Immediately.

Genre: YA
Popular Work: If You Could Be Mine

Author 7: Charlie Jane Anders

This author and advocate wrote the award-winning speculative fiction novel All the Birds in the Sky. This is a story that combines magic, technology, and the apocalypse all into one book. She’s also organized a lot of events that are aimed at the queer community. She’s still writing and her newest work should be coming out next year.

I feel as though trans individuals are highly underrepresented, so I’m excited that someone so proud and vocal is getting published.

Genre: Speculative Fiction
Popular Work: All the Birds in the Sky

Author 8: C Alexander London

This man has written across a huge range of genres, so you’ll probably find something you like by him. I’m not kidding. He’s written YA, middle grade lit, picture books, and adult books. He’s a gay man writing gay characters into stories that didn’t used to have gay characters.

You can read this author’s work yourself, but also share his picture books with children. Like I said, he’s written something for everyone.

Genre: Everything
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Author 9: Chinelo Okapanta

This Nigerian-American author made a huge splash in the literary world and is proof that those who work in education can also publish amazing novels. I could list all the awards she’s been nominated for with her debut novel, but that would simply take up too much space.

She’s also published a lot of short stories and essays, which are worth checking out if you can find them.

Genre: Short Stories, Literary Fiction
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Author 10: C.A. Higgins

C.A. Higgins is a relatively new author, which means she’s got many years ahead of her to keep publishing books. Her work is firmly written for sci-fi fans, dealing with both classic topics (space) and newer topics that have been gaining traction in fiction in recent years (AI). Also, she has a degree in physics, which gives her an edge over other science fiction authors.

To be fair, I’ve only seen her mention girl crushes in several interviews, so I’m not exactly sure where she fits under the queer umbrella, but she’s an author to watch!

Genre: Sci-Fi
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BONUS Author: April Presnell

Ok, so I’m not published yet and I don’t have any books out that you can read, but I’m getting close to finishing the first draft of FanFact, a story about a fangirl who finds herself in the “fictional” world of her favorite book series. She runs into Blane and Liam, the two boys she ships in the series, and gets tangled up in the plot of the third, not yet released book in the trilogy.

Every project I work on features queer characters, so stick around if you’re interested! I blog here weekly and send out the occasional email to email subscribers with exclusive content.

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Who is your favorite queer author? Let me know in the comments!

The Best Of E3 For A Casual Gamer

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This post will be updated daily until E3 is over.

I’m what you would probably call a casual gamer. I play games a lot, and I have been playing them as long as I can remember. I started with the Super Nintendo in the 1990s and currently own 6+ consoles. But I’d still consider myself a casual gamer, mostly because I don’t game daily, or even weekly.

Instead I have what I call “video game phases” where I get utterly obsessed with video games. I’m in the middle of one now -- I am playing Nier Automata for the first time and I just got the first ending. Actually, I’d say that this is my favorite game I’ve played… ever.

But unlike hardcore gamers, every announcement at E3 doesn’t mean something to me. I often have to look up games that are being referenced during other announcements. But I absolutely love games, and so I want to share the news and announcements I’m most excited about, as a kind-of-casual-gamer.

Fallout 76

I am not a big fan of shooting games, but I love the Fallout series. The third game has easily been my favorite. As you may imagine, I was pumped to hear an unexpected announcement about a new Fallout game.

It’s a prequel to all the other games and it’s going to be huge (and man, Fallout games are already huge). You play as some of the first people to leave the vaults to enter the wasteland. GAH!

But the game is online. You can play solo, but I just hate online multiplayer games. I’m really, quite bad at video games, so my lack of skills being displayed to the public makes me unhappy. I’m just glad it’s not only a PC game since I certainly don’t have a computer that can handle a Fallout title.

Oh and it comes out IN NOVEMBER!

Elder Scrolls 6

All we know is that it exists, but yay, it exists!

Starfield

It’s a new franchise by Bethesda (yay) and it looks like it will take place in space (yay). It’s going to be single player, thank goodness. The graphics look beautiful. I’m hoping there will be a lot of planet exploring, but we’ll have to wait and see.

Cyberpunk 2077

So, this game looks extremely cool. The graphics look beautiful, and the game looks really interesting, but I am a bit hesitant because it is being developed by some of the staff that created The Witcher 3. People loved that game, but I just couldn’t get into it. I’ll have to play a demo or rent this one before I buy it, to make sure it’s worth me dropping a bunch of money on.

Sea Of Solitude

This game from EA looks like it’s going to be completely beautiful and heartbreaking. The story focuses on a woman who is so sad and lonely that she is turned into a monster. The trailer looks really interesting. The game looks somewhat surreal and I’m loving the style. It comes out in 2019 and I really wanna pick it up.

When humans get too lonely, they turn into monsters. That's what happened to Kay. But she's not alone - this ocean is full of creatures just like her. Finding them may be the key to changing her back. Sea of Solitude is an upcoming third-person exploration game from Jo-Mei Games.

 

The Awesome Adventures of Captain Spirit

I’ve talked about the Life is Strange series before and so hearing that a new game by the same developers caught my attention.

And then, it was announced the choices you make in this short, free game will have a direct impact on Life is Strange 2. The data from this standalone game will transfer to the Life is Strange sequel once it has been released.

It’s giving us a look at the world of Life is Strange 2, the new powers that will be in the game, and the world outside of Arcadia Bay. Who knows what hints we’ll find for the next game in this demo? I’m so excited!

Ghost of Tsushima

I love Japan, I love beautiful graphics, and this game has both. I also absolutely love sword fighting in games so it’s nice to see here. The game is absolutely gorgeous, so I am excited to try it when it comes out.

Sable

The art for this game looks very interesting, but not much has been revealed about it except that you play as a wanderer on a foreign planet. I love games like this, so I need to update my computer situation before this title drops.