They Both Die At The End Gave Me An Existential Crisis

Okay everyone, I have a lot of feelings about They Both Die At The End. For the most part, those feelings involve an existential crisis about living in the moment, how everyone I know (and me, obviously) will die soon, what happens after we die, and if I am happy with my life as it is.

Yeah, it’s a lot.

They Both Die At The End

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On September 5, a little after midnight, Death-Cast calls Mateo Torrez and Rufus Emeterio to give them some bad news: they’re going to die today. Mateo and Rufus are total strangers, but, for different reasons, they’re both looking to make a new friend on their End Day. The good news is: there’s an app for that. It’s called the Last Friend, and through it, Rufus and Mateo are about to meet up for one last great adventure—an unforgettable day that will change both their lives forever.

Summary courtesy of www.adamsilvera.com

Do They Both Actually Die?

Yes, of course they both actually die. It tells you that right in the title!

And no, it doesn’t prepare you for it.

The entire book is based on this idea of ‘by knowing the day you die, you can live out your final hours exactly as you want to.’ So, the entire book, you know the characters will die. But you don’t know when. It could happen literally during any point of the book that one of the main characters will die.

Will I Have An Existential Crisis?

I don’t know. I did, my wife did, and everyone I know who read it did, so my guess is that you will. The main things I’m freaking out about are:

  • Everyone I know will die, some of them before me. How do I deal with that?

  • I’m going to die and it could happen at any moment.

  • Am I happy with my life? Should I be making changes?

  • What is the point of doing anything if we’re just going to die anyway?

  • What happens after we die?

  • What about the people we leave behind after we die?

  • I just don’t want to die!

These aren’t groundbreaking thoughts or anything, but these have been the thoughts swirling around in my head for days since reading the book.

Isn’t The Point Of The Book To Make You “Live”?

Yes, I imagine it is. The book isn’t cruel. It’s sad. It’s tragic. It’s kind of hard to read, especially for someone who has OCD that is often focused on the subject of death.

And certainly it has made me think about how I need to live my best life while I can. But if I was living the exact life I wanted, I wouldn’t work. I’d just travel, hang out with friends, and spend all my money. Obviously I shouldn’t do this.

But I can look at ways to incorporate more things into my life that are important to me. If it will happen or not I can’t say, since right now I’m busy still having a crisis.

But Was The Book Good?

I mean...sort of?

I had some problems with the novel. I hated the character voices, especially Rufus. They just felt so contrived and I had a hard time relating to the characters because of the tone.

The book is written in very simplistic language. This isn’t uncommon in YA and my writing isn’t flowery by any stretch of the imagination, but I would have liked a bit more.

Plus, this story felt like it should have been set in the future. The fact that it takes place in 2017 and social media sites like Instagram are mentioned alongside new apps like the Last Friend app pulled me out of the story at times.

All that being said, the world building was fantastic, the characters were interesting, and the plot came together in a way that I am envious of.

So I would say yes, the book is good. Not stellar, but definitely good and not a waste of time to read.

Would You Want To Know It Was Your Last Day?

For me, the answer is absolutely not. I know myself. I’d never be able to deal with it. Instead I’d spend the whole time panicked about when the end would come.

Plus then every single day I’d have the panic of waiting to see if I get a phone call telling me that it is my last day alive.

Remember how I have OCD? This would be very, very bad.

But what about the rest of you? Would you want to know when it was your last day? And why? I’m really curious to see how many people actually think it’s a good idea.

10 Things We Need Explained In The Sequel To ‘Carry On’

Image obtained via GoodReads

Image obtained via GoodReads

[Updated May 2019}

Rainbow Rowell announced that a sequel to Carry On would be released in 2020 titled Wayward Son, and we finally have a release date of September 24th, 2019!. I, and many others, were extremely excited and surprised to hear this announcement. Carry On ended with plenty of questions, but none that had to be answered. The book was an entire story on its own, so news that another book was on the way was even more exciting.

Now that I’ve calmed down a bit from my intense excitement at the news, I’ve had time to think about the big questions I’ve had since I finished reading the first book.

Note: Obviously there will be spoilers for the novel, Carry On, in this post.

 

1. How will Baz’s family react to the news that he’s dating Simon Snow?

Class differences are a huge theme in the novel. Baz comes from an extremely old family, and Simon decidedly does not. Simon was, for a long time, working with the Mage, who Baz’s family had a great deal of contention with. How will his family react? Will he be accepted, rejected entirely, or somewhere in between? Baz has even mentioned that he didn’t think his family would accept him being gay. I think this is the question I need the answer to most.

 

2. What are the societal and political ramifications from the revelation about the things the Mage did?

The Mage did a lot of shady things; too many for me to begin to summarize here. I can’t imagine the entire country doesn’t learn about the role he played in the death of Baz’s mother, among everything else. With the class struggles already such a big part of this society, how will this knowledge impact the way the average person lives?

 

3. Baz and Simon have had a tumultuous relationship over the years. Has that continued into their romantic relationship?

It is simply impossible to believe that these two confessed their feelings and it was smooth sailing from there. First off, that isn’t how any relationship works. Secondly, Baz actively talks about killing Simon in the book. They have a lot of issues to work through -- you can’t just ignore them because you start dating.

 

4. Baz is a vampire. How does this come into play in their relationship?

Does Baz’s status as a vampire become common knowledge, or is he still hiding it? And how does it complicate not only their relationship, but their lives overall? And yes obviously I want to know if Simon becomes a food source (you all are wondering too).

 

5. Do Simon and Penny make good roommates? Is Simon planning to move in with Baz?

Depending on how far in the future the next book is set, Simon may already be living with Baz. I actually hope he’s living with Penny. I feel as if the two of them would be great roommates, and plus then we’d get to see the boys transition from boyfriends to boyfriends living together.

 

6. What happened to Agatha? Did she find the magic-free life she wanted?

I really enjoyed Agatha from a character perspective. She felt like a real person, though not a person I’d want to spend much time with. But her thoughts and desires make sense, and I’m curious to see how trying to live a magic-free life worked out for her.

 

7. Does Simon ever find out the Mage was his biological father?

I need him to discover this. I’m so eager to see the emotional fallout that would come from this knowledge.

 

8. What are Simon and Baz doing with their careers?

Simon has no magic and wings and a tail to deal with. Baz seems like he’d get an excellent job, but what is Simon doing?

 

9. How has Watford changed?

Or has it changed at all? The Mage is gone so of course, something must be different...at least you’d think so. Has the process for admitting students changed? How are classes being run? What new policies are being put in place to keep students safe?

 

10. How is Simon dealing with not having magic anymore?

Simon had a lot more problems with controlling his magic than the average person, but he still had it and could feel it. Now that he used all of his magic to stop the Humdrum, how is he dealing with life without magic?

 

Carry On and Fangirl are the books that made me realize that I could write books about fandom. I’d always assumed that this type of book would never be published, but now I’ve taken my idea of a fangirl accidentally finding her way into her favorite book series and created a manuscript with it. And I actually think I can get it published.

What are the questions you want answered in the sequel to Carry On?

The First Draft Of FanFact Is Complete!

On Sunday morning, I wrote the last word in the first draft of my novel, FanFact.

Finishing the novel has given me a lot of mixed emotions. The basic idea of FanFact, about a fangirl who finds herself in the world of her fandom, is something I’ve dreamed about for years. But actually writing the story happened on a whim, after I read Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell and realized this type of story could actually be published.

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I first started FanFact in November 2017 during National Novel Writing Month. The completed novel came in at about 74,000 words, pretty standard for a YA novel. What the word count will actually be once I start to query agents, I don’t know.

FanFact still needs a lot of work. I’ve already sent it to my first beta reader, and after I take a week or two off from it I plan to read the novel from start to finish and take notes on the major edits it needs. My beta reader already gave me notes for the first half of the novel that I need to address. I’m excited to get started on these changes to make the novel the best it can be.

What Are People Saying?

“I was obsessed with Blane and Liam from probably the second chapter. I've already written two fanfics and if I could draw I'd be doing nothing else but fanart.”

“April has an inviting style that calls the readers to keep reading. Her characters are authentic, clever, and dynamic. Even the smallest details help the scenes to come alive. The book has a familiarity and a taste of nostalgia that will be relatable for anybody who has been in the world of fandom.”

I’ve only sent large sections of FanFact to four people so far, but the response has been better than I imagined. People seem to really relate to Clara. I am so excited to share it with all of you!

What Now?

So the next question really is...what’s next?

As I mentioned, I’ll be working on editing FanFact and querying agents. I’m hoping to start the query process by this winter. Once summer is over I want to sit down and really focus on getting my manuscript in top shape.

Besides writing, I also want to focus on building an audience of people who are just as excited about this book as I am. That’s why I have a special offer for you.

Refer one person, just one, who you think would enjoy this book to my website and get them to subscribe to my email newsletter. Comment here letting me know who you referred, and I’ll send you the complete first chapter of FanFact.

Remember this is the first, rough draft of chapter one, so please forgive me for anything that isn’t completely polished yet.

I only send out emails once a month or so, and I promise not to spam anyone’s inboxes with tons of emails. I’m just hoping to build a loyal audience that can get exclusive updates and honestly, vouch for me as I start down this tough path of publishing.

Just hearing kind words from you all is a huge motivator. Writing is a lot of hard work and trying to be heard in the online world can get discouraging. Even just a comment on my Facebook statuses can make my day. Thank you to everyone for the support, and you’ll be hearing more from me soon!